A lot of things happen in such a short period of time, that at times it becomes fascinating at the excitement and build up of the ongoing events, but at the same time it’s distraught when things do not go how we may have assumed it to go. I have my days where I want to be expressive and detailed about the actual concurring events, but in hindsight, I become generic in a small world synopsis just to vent it out and let it roam in the universe. At least my feelings and frustrations are out and not built up inside me like a steam pot ready to explode when you forget to turn the fire off. 

The good moments are thrilling when our little hearts beat faster at the sight and experience of a new person that may enter our life, even if briefly. At least we get to experience euphoria in a way where the rays of sunshine catapult back and forth with our desires. I know myself that at times I can become delusional at the events occurring in my present life, because they’re actually bringing a new and familiar feeling we all yearn for. As tight as I can be with my walls, I think maybe it’s time to let the walls open since it’s been too long that I’ve kept them shut. So day by day, the doors loosen, allowing my emotions to be its true form, and I guess it could be a good thing at first or maybe too much since my excitement sometimes gets the better of me.

I am one with a motor of feelings. My expressiveness may be a weakness and a flaw but I think it’s what makes me at the end of the day. Timing could suck, but why be different than who I am? At least for a brief period you get to witness me for me. Sometimes I think my emotions are in check, but in reality I may be fooling myself. I like being expressive, and to some that may be a form of expectations, but to me, I don’t view it that way. I’m way too assertive about how I view things. I know I like reassurance, and again, that could be another weakness or a flaw of mine. But is it? Or am I just assuming it is because of past experiences? I don’t know yet.

Many can assume because of how I talk about my feelings I expect a whole lot, but I am a simple man who just enjoys emotions flowing back. What I expect and what I want are two different things. I guess once someone opens up the endless doors in my head, then maybe more of an understanding of my path-roads can be made clearer. I know that when I feel comfortable with someone, I allow myself to just be me, thinking it will just fl  ow pleasantly like Newton’s cradle. Symmetry at its finest, but it’s to be continued for another day I guess. We live and learn through our experiences, and it will continue to shape our overall frame for the better. One day timing may be right for all the puzzle pieces to connect together with no issues.